In an attempt to rekindle my mantra- “Don’t ever give up. The only true failure is when you stop trying.” I am making a “new” resolution. Scratch that, I am renewing an age old goal of mine:

Wake up early.

Its been a hard task that is constantly a struggle for me. But if my mother (the night owl from birth) can do it, who can’t right? So, how will I wake up early?

First of all, set the affirmation.

I will get up before 10:00 am every day/consistently. I can do this. I will do this. Starting on the first morning of the last ten days of this year’s Ramadan- May 25, 2019. 

Second (but technically always put Allah first), set your intentions/pray to Allah swt.

I pray to Allah swt that He helps me to achieve this goal. Ya Allah, you are the greatest of Helpers, when we take one step towards You, You take ten steps towards us. And when we walk towards you Ya Allah swt, you will run towards us. So I pray that you run towards me Ya Allah and help me in succeeding this affirmation so that I can better serve and worship you Ya Allah (swt). Ameen!

Thirdly, in detail, why am I doing this?

It will make your lifestyle better, you can achieve your career goals better, you will make your parents proud, you have a higher chance of study success and overall life success as well as higher chance of praying all salah. 

Fourth and finally, set your subgoals.

– Waking up early requires me to sleep at a decent hour. Sleep at 12:00/12:30 seems reasonable for now.
– If I have the urge to go back to bed, use the rubber band technique or run outside.
– (a few more. will update this later)

In either case, my point is I want to better myself. In addition to these subgoals, I am acknowledging that I NEED therapy (at least definitely at this point) to properly function and keep level headed and consistent. Without things to keep me busy (like my student organization that I left recently), I get in my head a lot and going 6+ months without therapy is taking its toll on me. SO, I want to start that up again. I am also coming to terms with the fact that I most likely need to take medication and I am willing to try again what my Psychiatrist has recommended.

Let this be a witness that I am saying and admitting that I need to and will try to take medication if this is what needs to be done.

Now that I have set all this in place and written/typed it out, I need to follow through! See you on the other side by tomorrow morning, before 10:00 am, bright and early! 🙂

Sincerely,

Yours truly, Sakeenah Tahir